Spiritual Growth

The moment we tell the universe that we are willing to be a student and that we are ready to open ourselves up to the Divine guidance, is the moment you better hold on tight for the amazing ride your about to take.

I have actively been on my spiritual path for about 14 years.  I feel like I have healed some pretty huge life issues and truly grown emotionally and spiritually throughout this time.  It feels amazing when your on this high and all is going perfect in your life.  All of this 'spiritual guidance' seems so easy,  just simply ask and it is given....  life is good!  And then all of a sudden while your busy living in this amazing bliss something can come along and knock the wind right out of your sails.  Before you realize it you are caught up in drama, gossip, judgement, anger, pain, fear, worry  or any  other lessons that life challenges you with. We find ourselves in such chaos and imbalance not even recognizing our own lives any longer..  Asking ourselves  'how did this happen', 'how did my life get to this point'.... AGAIN?

Well speaking entirely for myself of course,  this has happened time and time again for me.  No more than I learn some amazing enlightened information it seems as though life will put me to the test to see if I indeed absorbed the newly lit path.  Sometimes I pass with flying colors and other times I fail miserably only to repeat the lesson over and over until I get it.  Most of the time I am repeating the same lesson again and again in frustration, just waiting on it to be resolved and go away.  But.... It finally dawns on me after much denial, that my 'ego' is still engaged and as long as I am trying to justify my behavior I'm delaying the healing and 'it' isn't just going to go away.  Ego is most probably the toughest lesson by far that I have to deal with.  But when I FINALLY get it and truly give myself permission to let it go...........  LIFE BECOMES SO GREAT AGAIN!

Today's blog was inspired by my experience this afternoon.  The message for me today was -  TELL A DIFFERENT STORY:  For the past 7 months I have had a MAJOR attitude with a particular Dr. of mine.  My first visit with him was 'in my opinion' frustrating and humiliating.  I have been living with chronic pain from a knee that is bone to bone for many years.  Hoping for a miracle when I went to him, I in turn was told there was nothing he could do for me at this time with the exception of trying another round of injections.  The only other alternative at the time was a knee replacement and at my age (54) it isn't an option.  I just felt he was cold, showed no compassion and on top of that he looked at me and said  'your obesity does not help the situation'.  OMG,  did he really just say that.

  I left his office that day devastated, angry, humiliated and in denial.  However,  I did set up appointments to receive the injections.  The first set of injections didn't really do that much for the pain but intuitively I knew I needed to try another round.  So here I am going back to the same Dr. that I can't stand.    All of the things he told me were in deed the truth.  I simply didn't love his delivery of the truth.  I could have changed Dr.'s at anytime but I now realize that the Dr. wasn't the issue my EGO was.  My first injection last week was very painful and the knee has been in a lot of pain the past few days as well.  Today was my second of the three injections.  I didn't want to have the same experience as last week.  So I told myself that the experience could look different in my mind if I was simply willing to allow my ego and stubbornness to see it that way.  I sent love and kindness to this Dr. before my appointment.  I ask the angels to please help me to allow compassion to be received from the Dr. and everyone in his office,  I ask that the injection not be painful nor the recovery of it  (I'm going on vacation in two days so I certainly don't want to be in any pain). 

This is what EASE and GRACE will get you.....  I stopped letting my ego drive my experience and ask the Divine to show me a better way.  Not only did the Dr. greet me with a smile, he said 'let's try and do this as gently as possible today', and he did,  I had no pain from the injection, no pain afterwards and he told me to have a great day on top that.   And the best part.....when I went to check out, the girl said NO charge today.   Thank you... Thank you... Thank you     By the way....  the metaphysical manifestation of  knee pain is.... wait for it......  stubborn ego and pride.  inability to bend. fear. wont give in.  


I believe I allowed another great healing to take place today. (big smile)


When I came home and pulled a card for myself today this is what it said:





 YOU ARE GOING THROUGH A TIME OF RAPID SPIRITUAL GROWTH.  ENJOY THE PROCESS!



Joy is indeed what I experienced today!

Tina